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how can i explain
the triggers in my brain
that only when i am without
am i stable within
but that you
with a knowing grin
(and a scribbled NIN)
should make me seek
to rearrange
but how shall i begin?
no matter my efforts
my burdens fail to rest
and with veiled regret
i tread through a sea
that waves cruel greetings
bashes security
and capsizes intent
but seldom waves goodbye
unremarkable perhaps
the turbulence fights for my devotions
and when i emerge
weary and battered
you see the self loathing
and fragile emotions
as i wait in fear of relapse
you will say give it time
that dimension which does not seem to bind
i just hope that you will stay
to know and love
all that is my mind
the triggers in my brain
that only when i am without
am i stable within
but that you
with a knowing grin
(and a scribbled NIN)
should make me seek
to rearrange
but how shall i begin?
no matter my efforts
my burdens fail to rest
and with veiled regret
i tread through a sea
that waves cruel greetings
bashes security
and capsizes intent
but seldom waves goodbye
unremarkable perhaps
the turbulence fights for my devotions
and when i emerge
weary and battered
you see the self loathing
and fragile emotions
as i wait in fear of relapse
you will say give it time
that dimension which does not seem to bind
i just hope that you will stay
to know and love
all that is my mind
Labels: poetry?
posited by hereis nowhy at 12:39
1 Comments:
no, this is a very old poem (i'm feeling MUCH better thanks! hehe) ...
i wrote this for jess near the beginning of our relationship ... i had a breakdown in front of her, and i knew that she felt helpless, and didn't understand ... this was my attempt to explain my state ...
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